Cocktail

I was thinking of erasing my last post because I showed what really is going in my life. I seem so happy and seem like im a person with a perfect life, but thats my real life actually. Im normal because thats how my mom is doing as well. She used to live normally when he was in our life, she smiled, she laughed, sang, and acted as if nothing was wrong. She was not in denial, she was trying to live her life and make us feel as if it was okay, though it wasnt. Now when my friends knew about it, they were absolutely shocked! They never thought that "uae-blossom" would have lived such an awful life with such an awful father and a suffering mother and siblings. This is life, each person has his/her own secrets covered beneath. I was invited yesterday to my friend's "castle". It was a party. Im not sure if i really had fun or not. It was great to see everyone looking their best and like that. I looked great wont deny it B) lol! So we danced,ate, and chatted. There were two girls over there that almost ruined my night, but i strongly helf my emotions and didnt allow them to ruin my evening. My bestfriend crashed into a taxi on her way to there. She was already late when it happened, which made her night even worst, but the best was that she didnt get hurt thankgod, and she came to the party and we spent good time together. It was the first time we ever wear short cocktail dresses for a party. That was the rule our kind friend said we must follow. I think my dress was the best B) lol hehe.

We have no house. My father is crazy. He has schizophrenia and he is unkind. He wasted all his money on alcohol and useless business. After 4 months we dont know where we will be going. My brother has a land. He plans to build a wood house in it. The land is between two castles. I feel so bad. I feel hurt. I dont know what will happen to us. I want to live a normal life, without moving so much, without being worried where am going to live after a while. Im not settled. I feel lost. I wish i had a life like all my friends. Just being worried what to buy for this occasion and where to go in the vacation. Not being worried where to live in 4 months. Im so worried. Im afraid. Im tense. God help us... :(!

First Post

Hellow World. This will be my first post in my first blog ever. I wish it succeeds though, since i dont think ill have enough time to check it regularly cuz am a highschool student with a lot of things in her mind such as student council, open days, and other activities. Am more of an activity girl than an academic one. I like being in the lead in coordinating events in school. I get so jealous when someone gets to have an opportunity to be an organizer of some event. I tend to finish things on time, make sure that everyone have done their jobs. I wish i can be someone in the future.